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| i, again, completly forgot about this place. its kinda like a hidden treasure. i think ill clean it up and start writing some stuff down again. is anyone else besides stacy and amy still here? i think ill clean up that list too. while im at it, ill clean it all up. all fresh and updated...
ill bring an update from where i was last time...almost a year ago.
well, lets start getting to work and see how many fish are in this pond.
1.i voted for obama.
it was the first time i've ever voted and i did a ton, many hours of research on all parties. i even voted for my local officials too. even though i dont live in ohio right now, i felt that they would be the fitted for the job or the best way the issues should be. and for the records, everything i voted in favor of was approved or elected into office. 100% on that exam, aced it!
2. the lone star state?!?!
its true. after 28 years i finally moved out of ohio. i've had this feeling since i was 18 that i needed to get out of ohio and find a new place i could call home. i guess that moving away to college, living with amys and charlies familys, surfing on other peoples couches, living in my van, both by choice on tours and because i had nowhere else to go all had some sort of effect on slowing down the process. looking back at it now, everytime i started to get settled in, i dug up my roots and planted them some where else. suprise me texas, make me proud.
3. i have a motorcycle
a friend of the family gave me his bike because well, he just didnt want it anymore. one mans trash is usually trash, so leave it alone.....unless its a free motorcycle. then take it, clean it up, chop it, rake it, and bob it, then ride it until the wheels fall off....or until you get hit by someone. thats the one im putting my money on.
4. im a full time drug user.
not those kind of drugs. i stopped that 12 years ago. im a proffesional labrat. so before you knock it, think about someone who you know that is on medication. then think of how much you value them. you are welcome.
because with out me and my other fellow "rat" you wouldnt have any meds, then you'd die.
5. i live my life in colors....
what? no! sorry the guy at the compy next to my is jamming to something i cant really understand. all i know is that it sounds like mummbles, BUT he lives his life in colors. colors.
6. where did i go wrong...
did i go wrong? i know this is something that most parent think about their children. i know i've heard mine say it to me. but i have alot of time on my hands (because of the drug studies) and i dont talk to anyone (because they are stupid and/or retared) and i dont hve much else to do. so i sit and stair out the windows and watch traffic go by. i guess you could say that im prepairing for my retirement home days, but (a) i dont think i'll ever live long enough and (b) i play rock and roll and take drugs for a living, i wont have any retirement.
i sit and watch traffic go by and things will remind me of somethings in my past that makes me think "did i go wrong?"
what if i hadnt stopped doing drugs, or drinking like a fish?
what if i hadnt went to college?
what if i moved to chicago when my life had a nuclear meltdown?
what if i had stopped playing music 4 years ago?
what if i had staying in my van and not moved into stacys place?
what if i had ran away from the things that i have running in my head while im stairing out the window in a different way?
would i still somehow be where im at now?
would i of ever met all those people who make me who i am today?
go ahead and laugh because you think im starting to sound like your gandpa. he was just laughing because he was already crazy. i just think that im on my way.
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| whoa!!!! what happened to xanga? its cool and hip again like nachos or
something that is cool and hip again these days. i was just a litlle
bored so i decided to check back in and its.....different.
time to rant..............
im feeling a little down and helpless this last week and its starting
to really bother me. bothers way past the point of actually trying to
fix it, but more or less just rolling over and submitting like a dog.
im starting to think more, for longer periods of time, each day of
what is the point?
why even bother? why should i get up and try? im just going to fail at
everything except for failing, which i will accomplish by failing at
everything else, and eventually become a master of.
CONGRADULATIONS! your going to be a master of what you fear the most. good job josh!
what is the point?
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| dear xanga and my own xanga community,
i hear by renounce my xanga. screw all you all. you need me, you can find me here.
yours truely,
josh
"skullsandbones"
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| name that song AND band xanga!!!!!
im about to have a nervous breakdown,my head really hurts.
if i dont find a way out of here,im gonna go berserk cause.........
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